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My Father

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My Father

Ben Hulet
Jul 28, 2011
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My Father

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My father wakes me gently

It’s early.  Too early to even call it a morning

“Get dressed” he whispers as the day's events seep back into my mind

We drive for what seems like hours to stop and have breakfast as the sun rises

Eggs that look like big yellow clouds and chocolate milk that’s colder than snow.

The air in the field is as still as a statue but ready to explode with the slightest movement

“Always point your gun down” my father tells me

I nod that I understand but it’s the weight of it in my arms that guarantees my obedience

We pause as my father silently points and I raise my barrel

My heartbeat is shaking my eyes so I close one of them to minimized the confusion

I chart out the path and pull the trigger

Gunpowder escapes in every direction like frantic inmates in a prison break

It sounds like the plate that our waitress dropped that morning had just shattered on my shoulder and everyone had stopped to see what had happened

But this time the applause was not from the inconsiderate truckers,

It was from my father.

My alarm sounds; it’s early.

A sliver of smell leads me downstairs like a cartoon character floating after an apple pie

Breakfast is ready but the coffee pot is already half empty and my father’s big red bible is open on the table, so I know that he’s been up for a while

We load the buckets and scaffolding into the truck and my dormant muscles beg me to sit back down

As we drive, my father’s coffee battles to escape it’s round prison and give in to gravity’s call, but like a juggler, he always manages to keep his hand in the right place

We measure out the paper into even lengths, the cold razor perched between my lips

Measure, pull, measure, cut

Time after time, holding the razor firm against the straightedge, trying not to sliver the cut

When I mix the paste I’m careful to consider the kind of paper we are using as I add the water

The drill is strong but I brace it on my leg and the paste gives up its hold

It spreads smoothly now, across the wide paper, like a tidal wave that looses strength as it approaches the shore

Fold, flip, fold, start on the next one

The hall is so long that it seems like we are looking at it through a fish bowl, but I know we’ll be done by lunch

My father climbs the scaffold and puts out his left hand

I’m ready with the first sheet of paper

As he spreads it flat the sound of the broadknife shuffles and taps like a vaudeville show and he whistles along to make the performance work

When it’s flat and trimmed my father puts out his right hand

I’m ready with the sponge

“Not too wet, but not too dry either”

By lunchtime the hall is done and my muscles ask me again to sit down

This time it's ok and I reward them with a cold can of coke

Somehow it tastes different on these days

Cold and smooth, more like milk than soda

When the day is over we load the truck again

On the way home my father whistles another song as if the tap dance was still going on

I ask him if we will be going again tomorrow, but he says ‘no’,

tomorrow he has to prepare Sunday’s sermon.

My alarm sounds again

Sunday morning wouldn’t seem so early if Saturday night had not been so late

My father and I leave first to set things up

This morning we stop at Whataburger for breakfast

My father uses the five cent refill mug that used to be his father’s

They pour his coffee but I’m not sure he got the price on the mug

As we drive to the hotel my father is quiet, preparing his thoughts

The room we use is always dirty but my father doesn’t complain, he just whistles and sets up the chairs

My job is to carry the projector

I set it up and turn it on

The light bursts out and reveals the lingering dust in the air

I put on a slide to adjust the focus and the familiar smell of cooking plastic slowly spreads across the room

I turn the knob to make sure that everything is clear

Eternal words on plastic paper, carried in a milk crate

When the people arrive the music starts

Piano and voices dancing off of moveable walls

My father plays his trombone and energy fires into the room

Like turning on a master breaker and watching the house come alive

Later, my father preaches

His red bible open to the same page from the other day

He makes his appeal like a lawyer delivering his closing comments, knowing that the decisions of life and death hang on this truth

Some will listen, some will not, but he will never stop telling them

I am listening to him too

I know that what he is saying is true

I know his words are not reserved for this hotel room

They live inside him like a pacemaker, beating consistently, never allowing his heart to fail

These words will be my pacemaker too

I will play

I will work

I will preach

And I will whistle.

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